I was pretty much using whatever shampoo and conditioner happened to be in the shower

It was late August, 1998. I had just become a freshman at the University of Miami. I had grown up in Trinidad, surrounded by women with similar hair issues to my own. We went to the hairdresser as a family. I realize now, I barely had my own hair care fundamentals down.
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Chloe:
Everyone tells me I've fallen for an older woman because it's fun and mysterious but that it's just an infatuation and that it's unrealistic.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
How do i say goodbye to her?
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
How do i tell her goodbye and remove the closest thing to perfection I have ever met, out of my life.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
I just want our friendship back, I miss it so much and I was greedy to want more.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
How do I tell, one of my four best friends, that i care about her so much it actually hurts me. that because she has never given me a reason not to love her, that I have to push her out of my life.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
We havent talked since august, I live 1000 miles away from her, I am meeting new people, new girls, but I still can't stop.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
I don't want to loose her out of my life, i woke up with anxiety every morning for a month and a half fearing I will loose her, but she is not good for me and I can't stop.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
But I can't stop carring, I can't stop being happy when I am with her, I can't stop being so breathtaken about everything by her.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
As a result of these unanswered questions, I realize now that the feelings I have for her are only hurting me.
(22 October 2016)

Gillian:
I fell in love with a close friend at a time where she wasn't ready to love and she rejected me because she said she needs time for herself (trust me, she wasn't lying). this has left me in wanting, left me thinking what happens when she is ready.
(22 October 2016)